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I’ve received an invitation at the end of which are the simple
letters RSVP, an initialization for the French phrase répondez s’il vous plait.
Please respond. The onus is not upon me to say “Sure, I’ll be there” nor is it incumbent
to reply, “I’m sorry, I won’t be able to attend.” I simply must reply. I fear
this invitation and the choice it brings. If I demur, will another invitation
ever be forthcoming? If I say yes, where on God’s earth, or rather, in his
Kingdom, will I end up?
You see, this is no beckoning to attend a party, to go on a motorcycle
ride, or to go out to lunch. I’ve not been summoned so much as asked to come
along. I felt summoned when I accepted another term on Session (Presbyterian Church
governing body) and summoned when I volunteered
as Clerk of Session and, having been summoned, I obeyed. No, this is different…this invitation is one
of wooing me and asking me to be in for a long journey, one that if I choose to
accept it, will bring a change. We Presbyterians often resist change,
humorously so.
I’ve been asked to come along on an exploration of prayer. I’m saying yes
and thinking that I should document this trip, thus this Calvary’s Thread post. The guidebook I’ve picked up is Richard J.
Foster’s book Prayer, Finding the Heart’s True Home. That subtitle…where
then will I reside when I’m through? What will I have left behind to get there?
St. Augustine said, “True, whole prayer is nothing but love.”
To find true, whole prayer we cannot allow ourselves on ounce of hate nor
smidgeon of contention. I’ve learned that I’m a man of contention with a vein
of a judgmental spirit at his core. I’d rather write about things I don’t like in
the church, the country, or my neighborhood – write about how my ideas are the
best. But prayer? I have to put
contending aside and lay bare my dark soul and expose myself to pain. What if
you don’t like what I say about prayer, how I’ve written it, or you find my
typos, poor grammar, and childish technique distracting to the point and miss
the invitation? Suck it up White (an
old coaching phrase I’ve heard over the years).
Being asked to pray is an invitation to come home to a God whose arms are
open wide for us, who has been yearning for us to return to fellowship with
him, to sit and talk, to rest in him, and to let go of the world. This home has
a door and the door, a key. The key is prayer. The door is Jesus Christ, he is
the way and the truth and the life. Without him there is no entrance, no access
to the Holy of Holies where we will find God’s presence and his listening ear.
We are asked home to prayer from a country on the far side of nowhere
that is filled with noise, crowds, and hurry and where we jostle each other for
position to be first and to get the most. We must leave this behind and come
into His rest and fellowship. I’ll take the trip and hope that I have a
tentative enough grasp on the far country to let go and that I have enough
connection to the Holy Spirit to offer a little travelogue of the journey.
We are invited. Let’s répondez…
In His grip,
jerry
